Hi larc:
I'm really glad you started this thread. It's a question I've wanted to ask for awhile now.
My husband asked me that and I explained my reasons to him but I wanted him to see the reasons others have for being here...some to help, some to get help, some to do both and some just for the fun of it.
I posted my reasons in another thread by Amazing about Making a Difference but I'll repost them here too for those who haven't read them in that thread.
Why do I continue to come here?
Since I started coming here, I've been learning things about the history of the borg's beginning teachings that I probably never would have found out on my own. I was too ingrained by the typical controlling methods of the borg to even think of searching out if they were right. I totally, unquestioningly believed. That which I couldn't and wouldn't follow (such as shunning) left me feeling defective, rebellious, unworthy of God's spirit.
Reading 'Crisis of Conscience' was the beginning of the opening up of my eyes. I realized there was so much wrong with the borg and then since coming here, I have read so many others express these same feelings, I could see that it wasn't "just me"...maybe I wasn't just rebellious and unworthy.
So forthe knowledge I have gained is the first and foremost thing bringing me here and keeping me here. And every day it seems, there is something more brought to my attention that I would have never dreamed the GB would have done, to deliberately mislead us in creating their own "doctrines" or rules. It truly flabbergasts me to find out where they have twisted someone's words to mislead us to believe these people agree with the borg on "blood", or "creation" and others.
It has been an amazing outlet for me to formulate my thoughts and to be able to express my emotions that have been on a wild rollarcoaster ride ever since I started on my road of discovery. To be able to have an opinion, or question, and to have freedom to express it is gratifying and therapeutic. That freedom is intoxicating.
Then a building-up of my self-esteem, from the borg-induced brow-beatings, has resulted from the interchange of thoughts with posters here and "meeting" others in the same boat as I am in.
It also encourages me so much to "hear" someone express their appreciation and gratitude for something I've said. That just urges me on to keep on digging away at learning more myself. I want to be able to help anyway I can to make others that are "lurking" here to feel the same freedom I feel.
I guess rather than having a need for revenge,I have a sincere hope that the borg will have to face up to #1.their deliberate misleading by their "couching" or twisting words which can only be called what it is...LIES...and to...#2.the lives lost as a result of their rules on blood and neutrality...and to...#3.the lives ruined by their dogmatic stand on protecting molesters {for only one reason..to protect their image}.....
...NO I really want to see them brought to their knees for all of the above reasons. Too many lives have been severely damaged or lost because of the pompous desire of control of a few.
I hope we'll all feel the gratification of seeing a profound affect on the borg, like a significant drop in numbers, as a result of the exposure of their skeletons on the internet and in the media.
I have a long way to go to overcome the waves of absolute sadness that overcome me when I think about, or talk about, how deeply it hurts to know how many years of my life have been wasted believing and trusting so naively in the purity and holiness of our self-proclaimed "spirit-directed caretakers".....BUT I am so grateful for the people here, who are committed to helping so many of us over and over, with information about the deceitful, deliberately misleading teachings of the borg.
I know I have so much life to live yet and I've gained so much for myself from this board, I want others to experience that same freedom I've found, and I hope that others will benefit from being here too.
Had Enough